Learning to Stay on the Page

This morning I am sitting in front of a blank screen, fighting the urge to close the page and walk away. For years that has been my pattern. Today I am choosing something different. I want to write every day, even when I am not sure what to say, and see what muscles grow when I finally stop holding back.

Part of the tension for me is how much to share. I want to keep the adventures of life alive without handing my whole life away. I want to stay private and still be honest. I want to live differently than the world around me, and somehow let that show up in these small daily posts.

Lately, that has looked like turning again to the Bible. I have listened through it before, dipped into chapters here and there, studied different books over the years. This year I decided to read the Bible in chronological order, on paper. Sometimes I listen and follow along, especially in the books that can feel like a lot, like Deuteronomy and Leviticus. What surprised me is how familiar so many of the names and stories feel.

In a world that feels like information overload, where everything is loud and it is hard to know what to believe, I keep coming back to this: the Bible is the only solid truth I know. The stories repeat themselves in our headlines. The patterns are all there. It feels like we are in a deep spiritual battle, and so many of us are distracted, pulled in every direction, missing what is right in front of us.

I do not know exactly where I am going with this today. Maybe I just needed to say that I believe we are here for a reason, in this strange time, and that the way forward is not as hidden as it feels. If we would open our eyes, hearts, and ears to God and to his word, I think we would see more clearly what we are called to do. Maybe that is enough for today.